Feed Your Soul
Chris called me a whore.
I'm so hurt.
^-^
What a boring post.
I went into town with Luke and Misty today.
good people.
Dur!
Cat Scratch Fever.
Is he not tooooo cute?? He loves the camera.
We love scar too
...except when he humps Simba.
That's not cool.
[Rawr]
I went to the moviessss.
With Paaaam and Kaaaaitlyn and Wayynnnaaeee and Daaaavid.
Pam and Kaitlyn bought ties. :-D
Saw goth girl harassment.
Pam and I sang Extentialism on Prom Night along with Davids telephone.
like 6 times.
We fought in KB toys. With whatever weapons were available.
Pam and Kaitlyn like boys.
Then me and david "Shopped"
David sniffed panties in Goody's
and spilled slurpy all over the floor of 7/11
One of the goth girls I swear followed us to TJMaxx.
We found a lady with ultra gravity defying hair and a purse that was 80 dollars.
It really shouldn't have been...
We love Lime Rassberry Vanilla Coke Slurpies!!!
[Cheers]
Okay so no washington today.
Too much rain.
We'll go tomorrow I suppose.
At least I can go to the movies today.
Poo on Jessica.
Stupid girl...putting a baby ahead of a movie on a priority list.
I tried somthing new.
Instead of ignoring what hurts
I tried throwing it back in my own face.
It was like throwing eggs at a brick wall.
I wasn't even listening.
Maybe someone else has to throw them into my face.
Or maybe I'm numb.
or dumb.
or crazy.
Rawr.
[Foams at mouth]
I'm excited.
I get to go to washington this weekend and see the Smithsonians.
It's been like 5 years.
God ... and Sturt ... knows I love museums.
They're so comforting.
I took a walk today through Apple Hills.
I visited the ponies and styled Juan's hair like Kevin Bacon in Footloose and took a picture.
Margarite tried to eat my leg through the fence.
I took some pictures of the ducks and a pile of bricks.
Kevin mother fucking Bacon...and Juans hairdo was free.
Bitch Control
Access Denied...bitch.
[Love]
On a scale of one to ten...
How wrong is it to think your stalker is hot?
[Love]
At my most beautiful
I count your eyelashes secretly
With every one whisper
I love you
I let you sleep
I know you're closed eye watching me
Listening
I thought I saw a smile
REM
Don't belive anything he says.
I'm so pissed.
I bought Chocolate and Caramel Creme Savers today, even tho I don't like chocolate much, and I thought they were the soft chewy kind.
Turns out I bought the hard kind.
How depressing.
I need a hug.
Derricks buying a Volvo and dad wants to buy me a lime green bug.
I don't really like bugs and I was hoping to get a truck instead but hey...
It might be cute if I deck it out with hippie stickers.
Which I intend to do to whatever vehicle I get.
Where do we go to draw the line
I've got to say I wasted all your time
honey
Where do I go to fall from grace
God put a smile upon your face
when you work it out I'm worse than you
If we worked it out I'd want it to
when you work out where to draw the line
Your guess is as good as mine.
[Love]
So it's march 22nd eh?
Well I'll be goddamned.
I hadn't any idea it was this late in the month.
hm
Who know's why I don't give a fuck.
GEMINI
Your star sign denotes an air of duality in your character. Simply, you're a neurotic schizophrenic. A real fucking weirdo, the type of person who'd kill them self to win a bet.
There are signs
Dividing in
That I couldn't abide
I wouldn't miss it again
Burning every bridge that I cross
To find some beautiful place to get lost
You had love
But made it die
Pushed her away
She said please stay
Burning every bridge that I cross
To find some beautiful place to get lost
To find some beautiful place to get lost
I don't know where I'll go now
And I don't really care who follows me there
But ill burn every bridge that I cross
To find some beautiful place to get lost
-Elliot Smith
[Love ]
and sometimes I really think you suck.
Make up your mind,
cause I've made up mine.
[Love]
I went to Charlottesville yesterday
I bought a super-cute skirt ^_^
bet you didn't see that one coming.
Nostalgia struck today
I heard your song in my favorite store
and couldn't help remembering why we don't talk anymore
I tried to throw you away last night
I know it's bad
and I know it's not right
but I won't let go of my foolish pride
even if I remembered your number
there's nothing left to say
Indecision will always stand in your way
distrust in mine
[Love]
I was shuffling through my cds today and saw a 2PF CD that Sam burned for derrick and noticed that there were two tracks on it and I'd only listened to one.
The first is the Show and the second says it's a remix of The Show.
Todays Fuck You goes out to the lovely members of 2PF.
remix my ass.
It's the same fucking thing as the first one.
Anyways, that was nessecary in order for you to realize why this next thing happened.
I had some really vivid dreams last night.
The first one I don't wanna recall because it involved me killing someone I love dearly.
for the own sake of course but tragic none the less.
Im still not sure how it got into my subconscience.
I transgress...
POINT! The second one comes and goes but the one part I remember I was in a football stadium and there was music from 106.3 playing and all of the sudden I realized i was hearing The Show and I turned to Derrick and was like Holy Fuck! They made it....
there was a lot more but it's irrelevant.
I know it only happened because I heard the song eariler that day but still...It's motivating!
So that's my premonition ; )
To my fuck you i would like to add a Good Luck and may my dream, and yours, come true. ^_^
...not the one about killing my friend...that doesn't fly...
[Love and Encouragement!!]
David likes to drink immigrant blood
Made the audition...la-de-da
Now I'm lost songwise.
A little bit of an idea of what song i want but no guitar to accompany it.
And even with a guitar. It's not the right kind of song to win.
It's just what I feel like performing, I don't really give a flying fuck weather the audiance likes it.
har har har
There must be magic
otherwise
how could day turn in to night
and how could sailboats
otherwise
go sailing out of sight
and how could peanuts
otherwise
be wrapped up so tight
David doesn't believe in magic.
[Love]
UnderMyeUmbrela: Fancy a hump?
smileyjecka: from whom?
UnderMyeUmbrela: ^_^
smileyjecka: I've had better.
[I still love you Jessica]
Auditioned today for the concert.
I kinda sucked but I think I'll still make it.
If I don't end up singing the Jewel song then it's Sorrow Street.
I don't know if I'll be able to do either the night of the concert. or the solo in one of the choir songs that I got tricked into trying because no one else wanted it.
Thanks guys.
I kinda might have this major fear of le stage.
Times like these
I love you
But what can I do about that?
I'm too busy relaxing to shoot so hard at lost causes
If you come around...
Bonus
But untill then
I don't get much better than this.
[Love and Empathy]
I just may have a computer now that is not a total douche.
It's just a baby douche.
I was like an inch away from being caught texting in 3rd block today.
Mr. Dull looked down and saw my phone in my hand but he chose to spare me.
Don't ask me why.
I just need sombody on the phone right now.
I feel really lonely.
Maybe I'll call J-funk and see what she's up to.
[Love]
Oh what a fine day to be a dork.
Arn't we all happy with ourselves today?
Yea well I'm kinda pissed off that my Drivers Ed. grade might be a B.
But other than that--I'm feeling groovy.
Derrick and I are strait chilling. No doubt.
He can play guitar but I can beat him at word games.
It's a symbiotic relationship I think.
Did you know more money is printed each day for Monopoly than for the US treasury?
I shit you not.
[Love and Patience]
Everything is wrong.
Everything is bad now.
But I'm happy with me.
Because I'm still here and I'm still queer.
No one can hurt me without my accord.
Only I can hurt me.
i'm going out sleepwalking
where mute memories start talking
the boss that couldn't help but hurt me
and the pretty thing I made desert me
i'm going out now like a baby
a naïve unsatisfiable baby
grabbing onto whatever's around
for the soaring high or the crushing down
with hidden cracks that don't show
but that constantly just grow
i'm walking out on center circle
the both of you can just fade to black
i'm walking out on center circle
been pushed away and i'll never go back
[Love]
Home.
Roanoke was fun ^_^
Chaotic--but fun.
The salem civic center was so packed and the bleachers were like strait up.
Take a fear of hights, add a little anxiety caused by crowded places and you get a really annoyed little girl crouching in a chair at the top of the bleachers where she has been forced to sit and getting snippy with anyone that touches her.
Yea that was fun.
It was like three days I really should have more to say about it.
But hey go figure.
[love]
YaY for cool hotels with internet acess in their lobbies!!!
Boo to stupid boys!!
Bre and I are chilling here in the lobby while levi hits on the others in our room.
no thanks.
If he's in there--I'd rather not be. No offense Mr. Madison.
Laters!
Wrestling match on Friday so we're leaving tomorrow.
2 days and I'm gonna be bored as hell.
I'm so confused about so much.
For some people--it's just so hard to say what they're thinking.
Sometimes I feel like Im one of those people.
God, someone, please hold on tight to me before I can run.
I need help.
And a little comfort.
smileyjecka: you don't live with regrets remember?
You're right--thanks.
[Love]
Whatever makes you happy.
What ever you want.
You're so fucking special.
I wish I was special.
But I'm a creep.
I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I even doing here.
I don't belong here.
__________________________________________________
Just walk away Renee,
You won't see me follow you back home
The empty sidewalks on my
block are not the same
You're not to blame
From deep inside the tears that
I'm forced to cry
From deep inside the pain I
I chose to hide
Your name and mine inside
a heart upon a wall
Still finds a way to haunt me,
though they're so small
I will be found.
I will be cherished.
I will be needed.
I will be taken seriously.
I will have made someone happy
I will be missed.
You won't ever wanna let me go.
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Why am I the target for this????
smileyjecka: Renee you fat lard come get some dinner. Renee eat, eat the food, EAT THE FOOD.
derWAFFLEHAUS: flippin sweet!
SprynWindxSnce89: look, Renee...just do what i do...follow your heart
BuckBG56: heck yes!
Napoleon you HAUNT me!
Round and around we go
we can't know if it'll end well
we fall on and we fall off
exsistencial carosel
No new snow this morning. Dissapointing.
Anyone like the song by Incubus Are You In ?
haha. In Roanoke they told us it was about an orgie...is that how you spell that?
Sorry. Current song so I thought I'd share the humor.
I'm home all alonely. :(
Derrick stayed with Jennifer last night and Mom and Doug are both working.
Looks like I'm the only one without a life.
What a great feeling!!
Hampsters can't throw up--No new news.
Confession--I've never seen sleeping beauty.
[Love]